Life is contradicting

Been a long time....

Life is so irritating. When i feel comfortable wif my present life, okie wif his attitude and manage to have to "dun wanna know and dun care" attitude towards him, he finally realise that i am changing and start to try hard.

Well its good that finally he grow up. but then i am so far ahead now. i need to slow down and wait for him to catch up. in so many marriage, i wonder how many are really so loving and really like the pledge "love one another till death do us apart."

Pls do not misunderstood that i love him no more.its just that i have finally lock myself up and start to live with some goals in my life. finally independant and need not to be love or require any support. for me to be able to come to this kinda stage, it require so much time and setback. really i think he come in too late. no matter what he do, things will not be the same as before. what done cannot be undone. till now i still can feel the deep heart pain which u really can feel that the world is spinning and come crashing down but u are still alive.

Sometime i wonder. ppl like to measure love and have so many words to describe love. but remember. when the world 1st started, it does not have any language or words. when u are born into this world, we have nothing.

Brain and hearts should not belong together. when the brain is dead, the heart still can survived. when no action is taken, the heart also survive. but when the heart is dead , nothing can survived.

brain or heart? u decide.